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Warning: Explicit Material - Religious Material
The Present Ghosts:
Last Saturday night I made a fool of myself. I became unglued with anger and jealousy at my
girlfriend. She would have never known it. I kept my cool and did my best to keep the ghosts
away. I did well for the better part of two hours until I finally broke down and confronted my
girlfriend. I did my best to remain calm as I told her how much she is hurting me. How her
actions are killing me inside. During these moments it's hard to understand that she’s not the
issue. The real issues are the ghosts that have haunted me for 20 years now. In these moments I often forget to take a deep breath. I forget to gather myself and give grace to others and myself.
The problem with our ghosts is that they seem so real in the moment. I feel completely justified to act irrationally and take out blame on others. Last Saturday I let the ghosts win again.
The ghosts continued to remind me that “I’m not good enough.” Tormenting me with the still
small voice of… “You are not a man that deserves this girl. The voice whispers, “she’ll wise up
before long and leave you.” Oh, how I hate these voices. I hate that they overtake and overwhelm my mind with lies and insecurity.
I’ve been dating my girlfriend for 7 months. We have been friends for about two years. It was a wild and long pursuit of her. She did her best to ward me off but I wouldn’t be denied. I knew I wanted to be with her! I was undeterred in my pursuit. To this point, our relationship has been all I could ever ask for. At 31 years old.... This is my first serious dating relationship in 8 years.
Marley lights up my world in all the ways. Her beauty, passion for life, and kindness towards
people are intoxicating to me. I’m baffled that I get to be her man. Most days I'm thankful that
I've done enough growing over the past 8 years to be in a position to love her. Other days I
struggle with doubts and anxiety that this is going to crumble. The best thing about dating her has been her constant pursuit of understanding who I am. She LISTENS and seeks to know me.
She wants to know the good parts but also the ugly parts of me as well. I’ve never experienced this before. It scares me. Sometimes it makes me want to push away in unhealthy ways that are so irrational.
So what made me so upset last Saturday? To tell you the truth... The story is not that exciting or even worth telling. The whole experience is summed up this way…. I’m terrified that she will
leave me. I look for reasons that support this fear. You see, my biggest fear is that I won’t be
good enough for her. I won’t be good enough for anyone. That this world is better off without
my contribution. I’ve had this fear since 2000. I've been living with this underlying voice in my
head that tells me it’s time to disappear. It's time to run away from the people who love me.
My ghosts remind me that the world is better without me. Does anyone else struggle with this? Am I the only one walking around wondering when the people I love the most are going to turn on me? These lies never stop tormenting me. If you read part 1 of my story - You will remember that my parents divorce put me in a tailspin.
A tailspin of unhealthy thinking that I’ve been trying to overturn for the past few years)
I know that my parents leaving at 10 doesn’t mean I’m unlovable. That was their decision and it wasn’t about me. But those wounds still exist! Those wounds won’t let go. Sometimes I can
renew my mind enough to get a respite from them. But they come up again and again.
They haunt me. These wounds almost took my life in 2013.
... TO BE CONTINUED ...
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